am I losing it? or am I losing them
I had a bunch of friends that I knew since highschool , and some that I knew through college.
after few years of living here(USA) , 3 so far .. I have changed , I know that , I think i changed to the better
i became more positive , more aware of my surroundings and what's going on in the world and most of all, stronger :)
at the same time, I am having a hard time communicating with my old friends , the gap keeps growing , and everything I say sounds harsh or just nonsense ..
I think they became superficial , their minds have grown smaller every month , or my mind has grown bigger? I have no idea.
It is so hard to be honest with friends that i knew for 12yrs . that's funny right? I dont think they are friends anymore , they are just contacts on my contact list. some old contacts you dont delete , and just keep for questions or some hi/hello calls .. exchange news
some of these old friends though , reappeared , and they are true. because i think they chose to stay out of the mess , and chose to have a cleaner brain and a busier life .
sometimes it's good to come out of life with only 1 or 2 friends , and sometimes all these "number" of friends are just "party people" , they show up in a party, but really dont hear anything you're saying
screw you my party people friends, I'm not gona waste my energy trying to fix you , and I think losing you is more fun then keeping you coz you have a lot of drama n bagging dragging around you . you are the weakest links , I'd rather keep the new and old -still- brain-ful friends .
after few years of living here(USA) , 3 so far .. I have changed , I know that , I think i changed to the better
i became more positive , more aware of my surroundings and what's going on in the world and most of all, stronger :)
at the same time, I am having a hard time communicating with my old friends , the gap keeps growing , and everything I say sounds harsh or just nonsense ..
I think they became superficial , their minds have grown smaller every month , or my mind has grown bigger? I have no idea.
It is so hard to be honest with friends that i knew for 12yrs . that's funny right? I dont think they are friends anymore , they are just contacts on my contact list. some old contacts you dont delete , and just keep for questions or some hi/hello calls .. exchange news
some of these old friends though , reappeared , and they are true. because i think they chose to stay out of the mess , and chose to have a cleaner brain and a busier life .
sometimes it's good to come out of life with only 1 or 2 friends , and sometimes all these "number" of friends are just "party people" , they show up in a party, but really dont hear anything you're saying
screw you my party people friends, I'm not gona waste my energy trying to fix you , and I think losing you is more fun then keeping you coz you have a lot of drama n bagging dragging around you . you are the weakest links , I'd rather keep the new and old -still- brain-ful friends .
posted by Maya KWT at 1:16 PM
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